Even a dreary & drab, regular day of studying, devoid of much social interaction + intentionality, is filled with so much beauty. I’m amazed by His creativity in such seemingly mundane things. Color, patterns, landscapes, and majestic skies have His fingerprints all over them.
The sky was especially heavenly today. Michelangeloesque. It gave me perspective about my God, about the concept of eternity & in turn, finality. Finality of this physical life, this shell of my body - how my tomorrow is never, ever guaranteed.
If I am this enamored with the little things during my temporary, fleeting time here, how much more beautiful and breathtaking is heaven?
Today was a tough day studying. This exam may be one of the toughest obstacles I have encountered in my life - on many dimensions. I go from peace to turbulence in the matter of seconds - peace, because I know that the divine orchestrator of all things holds me in his hand, but turbulence, because the daunting, tangible calculations of missed problem sets and practice tests and failed good faith efforts can break down even the strongest spirit. I’m so thankful, though, that even though things may seem difficult, final, all-consuming, and definitive, we can truly rest in the knowledge and truth that God is beyond, beyond. Beyond our puny little brains and plans for ourselves. Beyond even the cosmic universe. I can’t believe that’s the God I serve.
Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways! (Romans 11:33 ESV)
"As Your love, wave after wave, crashes over me."
I’ve am so overwhelmed by His love - love that, like constant waves that crash over me so powerfully, is so extravagant that I can’t understand or take it in all at once, or ever.
You are so good, and You make me brave. All I need to do is stand, have faith, and be used by You.